And So it does Fly.....

Wow time sure does FLY and I mean FLY we are approaching Kylie’s last week of 1rst Grade and I can hardly believe it has already come and gone.
Xander will be completing Pre-school Prep also and move on to 2 day a week Preschool next year. I must say we had a VERY VERY rocky start but when it was all said and done it has helped him blossom so much.

Kylie,
I am so very proud of the girl you have become you have the sweetest smile, the kindest heart, and such a joyful disposition. I have to admit I did worry without the presence of your dad for the first year, we moved you twice, I know at times it is not easy being the oldest and having to help the little ones. But you do it with a smile. You are the best big sister any one could ask for. I am so very proud of how well you are doing in school and how your willingness to help others is truly amazing. I see you 5 years from now as a performer…. You have that talent to do great things in many different ways but I think your heart is on stage….
I love you to the moon and back baby girl and I look forward to making smores 100 more times with you this summer. I can not believe that you are going to be heading to second grade. Love Mom

As for Luca he is so silly I just love our little “surprise” to pieces
I am in a much better mood now that I have a walking cast and my independence back. Oh and that my boss if going to be out the next 2 days and I only have to work a few hours on Friday then a 3 day weekend begins.

Broken.... and Bruised

So I broke my foot. I slipped running to the car when it was raining and my foot went a weird way. I am in a Temp cast until I see the ortho tomorrow.

Please God if you are listening I have 3 babies that need thier momma and I need to be able to be in a walking cast. If anything please let me be able to do that.

I am so depressed about this

Breastfeeding and 3 Year olds

So I just finished breastfeeding as you know. I still have a large freezer collection and my 9 month old takes it from his bottle now. Kylie was 4 when Xander was born and really did not have too many questions/comments about me breastfeeding… BUT this time my son has said the funniest things to me.

Things my 3 year old says in regards to Breastfeeding.

1. Mommy take off your shirt Luca needs to eat

2. Does everybody have food for the baby from their boobies

3. Its okay Luca you can have mommy’s boobies you don’t have to share

4. Why doesn’t daddy feed Luca like that

5. Mommy Luca needs a boob please he is crying

6. Disclaimer…. My kids come into the bathroom 100 times when I am in the shower upon seeing me put a towel around me I hear “Look Luca its your nummy”
I wanted to write some of the things he said down so I remember these funny comments. Plus I love how kids think and what they say it cracks me up I can literally sit and ask my 3 year old questions all day long and listen to the different answers.
Here is one of out conversations….. He has a Girlfriend at school her name is Isabella but he calls her Misabella
Me: what does Misabella look like?

Xander: She has beautiful chocolate Hair and 2 ponytails like this mama (as he shows me with his hands)

Me: Oh My She sounds very pretty What does she say to you?

Xander: “Oh Xander your so silly”
I think I should be worried as most recently he has been singing a song about how he loves her in the morning and in the afternoon, and in the evening underneath the moon.

EEEK.... Happy Friday On a Side note I fell getting into the SUV on Tue and have been limping around on my swollen foot I think it is time to get it looked at as the pain is now up passed my ankle.

Lists Lists Lists

Blahh… Not really sure I know what to say today. The final piece of my new furniture was delivered today so that is nice. Other than that. I got nothing.

An old friend (not sure if she is even that) had baby girl today. I am having baby Envy I think it is simply because I want more kids I can’t have anymore.
I wish my brother would find someone. .. I want to be an aunt *Sigh*

Me and the Hubby are always fighting it is annoying. I wish he would help me around the house without me having to ask him, I wish he would remember things I tell him we need when he goes to the store, I wish he would not be in a bad mood all the time.

I wish I could go on a girl’s weekend. Alone with no one but good girl friends, wine, laughs, and Pedicures.

I wish I had more money I feel like there is always something to pay for.

I wish we were going to Disney but I have no time off and with the question of whether or not Luca’s is going to need minor eye surgery I have to save the 6 days I have left until December Yes December that sucks!

I want to make of list of things I want to do by Jan 1 2013.

1. Plan a Family Vacation

2. Plan a girl’s weekend away.

That’s all I have for today

Singing the Blues

Oh Pandora Radio How I love thee…. Just thought I would share that. I recently discovered the wonders of it I know that I am behind but that is okay.


Anyways on another note. I have stopped allowing my children to watch TV during the week. It is wonderful. Although I can not control what goes on when I am not at home I can control it when I am. It is just annoying. I am not saying TV is bad because there is much education that goes into it. I just want to spend the time playing dress up, dancing, puzzles and doing other thing besides having to deal with not paying attention when I am even talking to them.

Xander is not bad he never really was a TV kid but my daughter is. Everyone seems to be adjusting very well to it so I am pleased.
It is just a much more peaceful time when no noise other than the Circus I live with  I mean that in a very good way.
This week was emotional I got mr. monthly for the first time in 18 months and it sucked. But On Monday I came home from work and got a note from Kylie’s teacher with a letter from one of the students who had wrote a Thank you note to Kylie
It said the following:

Kylie, Thank you so much for being my friend when nobody else will play with me or sit by me. Thank you for playing with me and always being my friend. Love “girl in class”
When I asked Kylie about it she simply said that sometimes people are mean to her. Really it was so natural for Kylie to be nice it was like she didn’t do anything special. I cried and cried some more. Just knowing that she has such a kind heart makes me think I did something right as a parent. I feel bad sometimes for her and I try to make sure we do things with her alone like we used to.


She was the baby and first grandchild for over 4 years. She is one of the only girls on Ben side of the family so she was a Princess to everyone and spoiled rotten. When Xander was born early naturally a lot of our focus was on him. Luca being a pleasant surprise it has been an adjustment for her. I mean this has all happened in 3 years time. But yet she still is my Sunshine such a kind caring little girl who always finds the good in people. Sometimes I wish I was more like her.

I am going to make it a point to do one on one things with the kids more this summer. My husband has been really good about it. I sometimes still feel overwhelmed But I want to make sure I try to take things one day at a time.

My Boys :)

Starting Over with the Blogging

So I know that is has been awhile and really it is just simply that my life is so hectic with 3 kids. Kylie is the social queen and with Bubby now it preschool and me still working full time plus having a baby who just now in month 8 started sleeping through the night. I know I should not complain and I shouldn’t I was just not used to it because my other 2 did much earlier




So I stopped nursing and it’s bittersweet… I have so much stored milk it should carry him for the full year. I was only doing it in the morning and before bed. He was just not interested anymore. It was more fun to see what was going on with his brother and sister than to hang out with mom. Which is okay exclusively breast- feeding for 8 months is good in my book. It is funny because with Kylie I nursed 2 months and got an infection and was done. With Xander being a preemie I got so much education and information, help, and understanding about it. I pumped for him while he was in the hospital when he came home I nursed him until he was 9 months old. We did supplement during the day when I was at work with formula. I loved doing it hard though with Xander he was so tiny I had to use a breast shield and he never really latched right.



Luca seriously was a Champ right out of the womb! My milk supply was good and it was a wonderful experience overall and I am going to miss it. I am sad that we are almost into year 2 with my baby.  I would love to adopt but I don’t think my husband is on board with that. I am content and feel so blessed but I would love another. We made the decision to go with the tubal during the C-section because well after High BP’s with Kylie and Pre- E with both of the boys and with Xander being born so early and me being in and out of the hospital with all three it is best that I not have anymore children. I am so thankful that God blessed me the way he has. It’s hard to say this but I wish I could have more children.



Growing up I always wanted a big family 4 or 5 kids but I need to focus on the good and say Thank you for giving what I have. 3 kids is a good amount. I have one of each plus my last little man. After Xander turned 2 right before I got pregnant with Luca I was at a place where I really though I was content I did not want anymore kids but when Luca came as a surprise I was over the moon! But now that he is getting bigger I am starting to feel sad about it I think because before I knew I could but now I know it’s no possible anymore.



Oh well… on a lighter note… I am having a garage sale to get rid of all my baby items/clothes. Any suggestions on prices. I have all of Kylie’s clothes which are mostly Gymboree Outfits… and Carters, Gap, and Old Navy..



The boys stuff is Old Navy and Carters mostly plus like Target and Kohl’s I was going to .50 a per item? Any Thoughts?

What a week What A week?

So I have been so crazy planning this birthday bash for the kids because of my dads illness we postponed it a couple of months, I was an awesome party and I have the most wonderful friends and family for helping me prepare everything, Now I have to got on helping Kelle through the best Dr. Suess bash her her twins thing one and thing 2 in May we got this and thanks to pinterest I wont forget anything ha!

Even through I was deathly ill All weekend the party went off without a hitch as we were driving home my daughter said that was the best party ever I wish I could have it all over again. Makes the last week of 2 am grocery trips and me falling down the stairs all worth it.

I have already figured out the theme of Luca's First Birthday I am going to do the very hungry Caterpillar because gee wilikers this boy can EAT he eats 3 jars of baby food at LEAST 3 times a day plus about 20 ounces of breast milk. I can not get the kid to drink juice to save my life. Oh well he eats a ton a fruit so right now its okay. But I figured the perfect theme for the 7 month old who grabbed his brothers cheeseburger right off his plate while I was trying to tear it up and tried to shove the whole thing in his mouth he is like stretch Armstrong,

On a sad note a friend I used to work with Husband died suddenly last week she had twin girls who were 4 and he was a stay at home dad :( it was so sad my heart just aches for her and the stuff she has been putting on face book I cry every time. She opted to have the casket closed because of the girls and I would most likely do the same,

I mean when something likes this happens a lot goes through your head like how is she going to continue to work or even get help with her twins. Just so sad and so sudden, Well I am so tired I am going to hit the bed before my one o clock alarm to pump goes off it comes so fast